Monday, May 21, 2012

I Know You Don't Want To Hear It

But I need to say it. Please.

Because it's the worst feeling in the world when you feel like you're the only one supporting your favorite player. It's the worst feeling when you dread every at-bat. When it's almost impossible to watch his at-bats. When you want to keep rooting for him but it's the hardest thing you've ever done. It's the worst feeling when you almost wish you had never become a fan in the first place because you would've saved yourself the heartache.

It's the worst feeling in the world when you keep your head up because you see him keep his head up . . .

But then you see the frustration and you see him let his head hang if only a little.

And you don't know if you can keep your head up.

I just cannot put into words how hard it is to watch when your favorite player is struggling. I can't describe the feeling of wanting him to succeed so badly it hurts. I can't explain how big of a lump is in my throat whenever he doesn't succeed.

It's the hardest thing in the world to admit that maybe he isn't good. It's the worst when you see all the negativity and you hate it yet part of you agrees with it while the rest of you wants to crush every person creating that negativity.

When you want him to know you will never be the one being negative. You just want him to know you will always be behind him whether you're the only one or one of one million.

I don't know how to describe the feeling when you're searching for positives in every moment. He saw a lot of pitches that at-bat, he blocked that ball in the dirt nicely, he threw himself at that runner who was actually out but the damn umpire called him safe and now that almost positive moment is taken away.

It hurts to watch right now. That's what I hate the most.

You all know who I'm talking about. You all better know I'm never going to stop rooting for him, though, no matter how tough it is.

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